I felt it was time to add a bit to this meager string of information about my mind.
But I can't think of anything.
fredag 14 juni 2013
torsdag 13 juni 2013
Confessions of a Broken Heart v2
I am not omnipotent.
I am not a rock.
I have feelings too.
And I carry with me a broken heart, wherever I go.
A very tiny, but pure object, that is afraid of the dark and does not want to be left alone.
But I don't know how to interact with other people properly.
I'm always so worried I'm not good enough.
And in a way of defending myself, I lie. A lot.
I enlarge the truth.
I pretend to be who I want to be. Who I want people to see.
But deep inside is only a single desire.
I don't want to be alone.
I am not a rock.
I have feelings too.
And I carry with me a broken heart, wherever I go.
A very tiny, but pure object, that is afraid of the dark and does not want to be left alone.
But I don't know how to interact with other people properly.
I'm always so worried I'm not good enough.
And in a way of defending myself, I lie. A lot.
I enlarge the truth.
I pretend to be who I want to be. Who I want people to see.
But deep inside is only a single desire.
I don't want to be alone.
My thoughts. v3
Being what I am is taking its toll upon me.
I know that people are envious.
I know that some feel sorry for me.
I wish for none of these emotions...
Generally I don't really wish for anything.
And in truth, I am a very simple person.
Yet very few can understand me.
Very, very few...
Sometimes it feels like I'm speaking a foreign language.
Others cannot understand me.
It gets very lonely.
But in a few cases, the sadness I feel makes me smile.
It is the only thing that makes me truly feel at home.
I know that people are envious.
I know that some feel sorry for me.
I wish for none of these emotions...
Generally I don't really wish for anything.
And in truth, I am a very simple person.
Yet very few can understand me.
Very, very few...
Sometimes it feels like I'm speaking a foreign language.
Others cannot understand me.
It gets very lonely.
But in a few cases, the sadness I feel makes me smile.
It is the only thing that makes me truly feel at home.
My thoughts. v2
Take our society, and purge it completely.
Imagine that everything is so new and fresh, that even the physical laws must be tested again.
A society that is currently within our grasp, should we cease the opportunity.
The measurement of an intelligent society lies within its ability to harness energy.
A level 1 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of an entire planet.
A level 2 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of an entire solar system.
A level 3 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of several solar systems at once.
A level 4 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of the entire universe.
Note that a level 2 society is already at the level of the entity that which we have come to call 'God'.
The ability to create and destroy planets with the single push of a button.
We have almost reached a level 1 society.
We already hold the power to destroy an entire country with the push of a single button.
So, if we continue to walk this path, what can we estimate?
That once we reach level 1, we will destroy the planet.
Once we reach level 2, we will destroy the system.
At level three, we will destroy all surrounding systems.
And pray to God that we do not reach level 4...
Let's play with this thought for a bit, shall we?
We'll pretend that gold is a very important metal, not only for trade, but for our health.
Atomized into a fine powder, it can heal virtually any disease, with very little tampering of its genetic code.
But... Uh-oh! Gold is not naturally produced in our solar system. What to do!?
Well, we are a level 2 society. We can effectively harness the energy of our entire solar system.
Through doing this, we travel to a new solar system that is rich with gold.
But we have no efficient means of mining the ore.
So we create the next best thing to slavery: Cloning!
We take a stem cell from ourselves, and let it grow into a completely new race.
Of course, we must remove its intelligence.
We don't want a slave that can think for himself.
Upon our first successful prototype, let's call him Adam, we take one of his stem cells and create a mate for him. We could call her... Oh, I don't know... Eve, let's call her Eve.
So we let Adam and Eve breed to complete this new race of slaves.
We give them a small portion of our technology, enough for them to be able to use without fully understanding it.
We give them ten basic rules to follow. We don't want things to spiral out of control, now, do we?
And so, after a few thousand years of success, a movement starts to evolve.
The newly formed slaves that we created are becoming increasingly intelligent and structured.
They start to rebel... They came out of nowhere. We were not prepared.
By using our weapons, they destroyed us, creating a tidal wave big enough to circle the planet three times over.
Only a handful of the respective races survived.
But we were all divided now. Humanity split into two factions; The ones who sought power, and the ones who pity the slaves.
The slaves that survived were forced to start from scratch, only being able to use very basic technology such as creating fire and sharp objects in order to hunt and craft items.
And so the battle grew among the higher ranks, humans fighting humans.
The slaves living on the ground with their limited knowledge and their devolved brains didn't quite understand what was going on.
In the confusion, they branded us as their gods. They were shaped by our direct intervention.
Some believed that the right way to reach our height was to sacrifice slaves in our honor.
They started killing each other mercilessly, the way that we did in the sky above.
While some believed that the right way was to pity the smaller things, and use their strength to protect those who cannot protect themselves.
After a while, humanity agreed on one thing: No matter what we do, what the slaves see will affect them.
And so we decided to make peace, for now, and affect them in secrecy instead.
Now we move in the shadows, among the clouds, always watching. Evaluating. Directing.
Their Gods are gone. Some has even started to doubt our existence.
But we are here.
We are watching.
Don't disappoint us...
Now, that was a funny little fantasy, wasn't it? :)
Imagine that everything is so new and fresh, that even the physical laws must be tested again.
A society that is currently within our grasp, should we cease the opportunity.
The measurement of an intelligent society lies within its ability to harness energy.
A level 1 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of an entire planet.
A level 2 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of an entire solar system.
A level 3 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of several solar systems at once.
A level 4 society is able to utilize and harness the energy of the entire universe.
Note that a level 2 society is already at the level of the entity that which we have come to call 'God'.
The ability to create and destroy planets with the single push of a button.
We have almost reached a level 1 society.
We already hold the power to destroy an entire country with the push of a single button.
So, if we continue to walk this path, what can we estimate?
That once we reach level 1, we will destroy the planet.
Once we reach level 2, we will destroy the system.
At level three, we will destroy all surrounding systems.
And pray to God that we do not reach level 4...
Let's play with this thought for a bit, shall we?
We'll pretend that gold is a very important metal, not only for trade, but for our health.
Atomized into a fine powder, it can heal virtually any disease, with very little tampering of its genetic code.
But... Uh-oh! Gold is not naturally produced in our solar system. What to do!?
Well, we are a level 2 society. We can effectively harness the energy of our entire solar system.
Through doing this, we travel to a new solar system that is rich with gold.
But we have no efficient means of mining the ore.
So we create the next best thing to slavery: Cloning!
We take a stem cell from ourselves, and let it grow into a completely new race.
Of course, we must remove its intelligence.
We don't want a slave that can think for himself.
Upon our first successful prototype, let's call him Adam, we take one of his stem cells and create a mate for him. We could call her... Oh, I don't know... Eve, let's call her Eve.
So we let Adam and Eve breed to complete this new race of slaves.
We give them a small portion of our technology, enough for them to be able to use without fully understanding it.
We give them ten basic rules to follow. We don't want things to spiral out of control, now, do we?
And so, after a few thousand years of success, a movement starts to evolve.
The newly formed slaves that we created are becoming increasingly intelligent and structured.
They start to rebel... They came out of nowhere. We were not prepared.
By using our weapons, they destroyed us, creating a tidal wave big enough to circle the planet three times over.
Only a handful of the respective races survived.
But we were all divided now. Humanity split into two factions; The ones who sought power, and the ones who pity the slaves.
The slaves that survived were forced to start from scratch, only being able to use very basic technology such as creating fire and sharp objects in order to hunt and craft items.
And so the battle grew among the higher ranks, humans fighting humans.
The slaves living on the ground with their limited knowledge and their devolved brains didn't quite understand what was going on.
In the confusion, they branded us as their gods. They were shaped by our direct intervention.
Some believed that the right way to reach our height was to sacrifice slaves in our honor.
They started killing each other mercilessly, the way that we did in the sky above.
While some believed that the right way was to pity the smaller things, and use their strength to protect those who cannot protect themselves.
After a while, humanity agreed on one thing: No matter what we do, what the slaves see will affect them.
And so we decided to make peace, for now, and affect them in secrecy instead.
Now we move in the shadows, among the clouds, always watching. Evaluating. Directing.
Their Gods are gone. Some has even started to doubt our existence.
But we are here.
We are watching.
Don't disappoint us...
Now, that was a funny little fantasy, wasn't it? :)
My thoughts.
"HOW DO YOU EVEN HAVE THE DETERMINATION TO WRITE ALL OF THAT!?"
"The better question would be, how can I have the strength to hold it all in?"
I guess that's what caused this.
Sometimes I feel sad. Alone. Misplaced.
Like I am somewhere I am not meant to be.
I have memories of things that has yet to happen.
Things that most people would see as ridiculous.
Ever since I was a child I felt like I didn't belong.
Like there was something wrong with me.
I spent many years trying to find out what it could be, but to no avail.
For there was nothing wrong with me to begin with...
I try to be as objective as I can in my research.
I try to look at the full picture of things.
I try to not avoid the truth, even if it may scare me.
I try to refrain from using premature conclusions.
I try, and this is the best I've come up with:
I was born ahead of my own time. Approximately 500 years ahead.
The world is very different then.
There are no countries, no racism, no hatred against different sexual preferences, no politics, no lies, no laws and no monetary system.
We live in harmony with each other and everything around us.
Technology has advanced to that beyond our comprehension that we may have today.
Spirituality and science is basically the same thing at that age.
We do not close our eyes just because we do not understand something.
In my time I am a healer. I have the same job as a surgeon, although, I work for the betterment of ones soul, rather than the body.
Through our technology and our philosophy we are all connected to a massive network stretching across the entire galaxy.
This network has many names that which I have forgotten. I call it the Source.
The Source is the beginning and the end of all things.
It contains all that has been, all that is and all that ever will be.
By using this network I can see the essence of all living being.
I am connected to everything in the entire galaxy.
I am the galaxy.
The bodies we have are mere vessels, a means to an end.
A way of exploring this plane of reality.
What matters is what's inside of us.
Take a computer, and unplug it. What do you have left?
People who are asked this generally say "A non functioning computer."
That's not how I see it.
Press the button, what happens?
Nothing.
It is in the equivalent state of a bucket. It doesn't do anything.
Plug it back in, and it starts right up.
So what is it that actually makes the computer?
Is it the bucket, or the power source?
I look at humanity in the same way.
Our bodies are husks that help us navigate through this world, but in truth, we are so much more.
And we are all connected to the most magnificent power source of all time, since before its time, time itself did not exist.
The Universe.
This is all I could think of right now... I suppose I'll post something more once I get in the mood.
"The better question would be, how can I have the strength to hold it all in?"
I guess that's what caused this.
Sometimes I feel sad. Alone. Misplaced.
Like I am somewhere I am not meant to be.
I have memories of things that has yet to happen.
Things that most people would see as ridiculous.
Ever since I was a child I felt like I didn't belong.
Like there was something wrong with me.
I spent many years trying to find out what it could be, but to no avail.
For there was nothing wrong with me to begin with...
I try to be as objective as I can in my research.
I try to look at the full picture of things.
I try to not avoid the truth, even if it may scare me.
I try to refrain from using premature conclusions.
I try, and this is the best I've come up with:
I was born ahead of my own time. Approximately 500 years ahead.
The world is very different then.
There are no countries, no racism, no hatred against different sexual preferences, no politics, no lies, no laws and no monetary system.
We live in harmony with each other and everything around us.
Technology has advanced to that beyond our comprehension that we may have today.
Spirituality and science is basically the same thing at that age.
We do not close our eyes just because we do not understand something.
In my time I am a healer. I have the same job as a surgeon, although, I work for the betterment of ones soul, rather than the body.
Through our technology and our philosophy we are all connected to a massive network stretching across the entire galaxy.
This network has many names that which I have forgotten. I call it the Source.
The Source is the beginning and the end of all things.
It contains all that has been, all that is and all that ever will be.
By using this network I can see the essence of all living being.
I am connected to everything in the entire galaxy.
I am the galaxy.
The bodies we have are mere vessels, a means to an end.
A way of exploring this plane of reality.
What matters is what's inside of us.
Take a computer, and unplug it. What do you have left?
People who are asked this generally say "A non functioning computer."
That's not how I see it.
Press the button, what happens?
Nothing.
It is in the equivalent state of a bucket. It doesn't do anything.
Plug it back in, and it starts right up.
So what is it that actually makes the computer?
Is it the bucket, or the power source?
I look at humanity in the same way.
Our bodies are husks that help us navigate through this world, but in truth, we are so much more.
And we are all connected to the most magnificent power source of all time, since before its time, time itself did not exist.
The Universe.
This is all I could think of right now... I suppose I'll post something more once I get in the mood.
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